It's that time of year again...

Yep. School started. Summer is officially over. My first day back to class was yesterday. Complete chaos. But then again, that song from Billy Madison was in my head all day so that was entertaining.

It was fun though. Nice to see familiar faces. Nice to trek those same flights of stairs and not be as winded as last semester. Nice to be able to sit in those desks and actually have some wiggle room this time. It almost makes me more excited for the semester. 4 more classes and an internship in the Spring and I'm done. I can't believe I'm so close. Bout time lol.

Buuutt... in the chaos I totally forgot all about MFP. Never even opened it. Live and learn, right? Made sure to get right back on track today!!

     I think this is going to be a great semester... I have plenty of stairs leading to each of my classes. After my Monday and Wednesday Spanish class, I have about 2 hours or so free. There is a track, and hopefully a locker room, so I am thinking I might try and convince my sister to start training with me so I can start jogging.

                                              Did I mention I'm completely terrified??

     So, I know I can rock out on the elliptical, and I've been following that with a pretty steep incline on the treadmill for upwards of an hour, but the idea of actually jogging scares the life outta me. I did the C25K once or twice- as in, one step once or twice- and was able to complete the individual step, but never completed the whole program. I can't believe when I watch the Biggest Loser and those contestants run the way they do. If I increase my walk much past a 3.3, I feel like my legs are going to give out. Logically, I know I just need to train them to do what I want them to, but it gets hard when that doubt creeps in and I start thinking I can't do it yet. I've talked myself out of a lot of things that way. That's another thing I need to work on.

     I would love to be able to run. My sister is a Collegiate Runner. My brother is just a ball of energy so he's good to go lol. But when I started this whole shift in my life, I remember daydreaming about being able to just go and run with them. And not hold them back.
That is one of my long term goals. Actually, I think that might be the most emotional goal for me. I have felt for a very long time that I was not an appropriate role model for my siblings, both younger than I am. We have an amazing family dynamic, but my sister went to college before I did, and both are in great shape while I have much work to do. Being the oldest its left to me to set the example, and until recently, I don't think I was. Now, I'm showing them that regardless of the struggle, we can do anything we set out to do.
     So now I won't feel bad about peer pressuring my sister into jogging or walking, but definitely sweating with me after our class together...

                                                                      Muwahahaha!!

     It also occurs to me that I don't do certain things in the gym because I still feel incredibly self conscious there. Jogging is absolutely one, and the idea of jogging at the college isn't much better, but I think the idea of having her with me makes it less ominous. She is the type to turn the table on me when I start whining and trying to back out, and tell me to put on my big girl panties and freaking deal with it. So if she sees this, or once I tell her, I will probably be the one peer pressured! Go figure lol.

     I think that's important though. Especially on a journey like this. There are days I would love to snuggle on the couch all day. This takes a staggering amount of work and dedication, and I'm thankful to have people in my life that aren't afraid to give me a good kick in the ass occasionally, when I really need it to stay on track. At least she wears pretty shoes when she does it! Hahaha!

     Alright, mis amigos, I suppose my message for today is... Don't be afraid to ask for help.
I know for a fact, if I'm being honest with myself, and I were planning to go take that jog by myself every day after class, something would always come up and I would have some excuse not to do it. I'm working really hard to step outside my comfort zone, but sometimes its a HELLUVA lot easier when you have someone to lean on for balance, cus that can be a shaky first step.

 

Thanks for stoppin by, guys! Happy Thursday. <3